Thursday, June 30, 2011

A Gun to My Head

AIMG_6478 recent conversation with a (male) friend got me thinking about the many unnoticed sacrifices that a woman makes as a mother and wife. Yes – they are her children and she will do anything and everything for them – but it amazes me at how little a man can understand or sympathize with her position.


We were discussing the very public divorce of a wealthy corporate man who had to give his stay at home ex wife millions of dollars on the basis of her new “accustomed lifestyle” based her on husband’s great success. My friend felt that this was unfair since it was “his money” and she was not entitled to it. “It’s not like someone put a gun to her head” to be a stay at home mom and wife. He felt that the way the court system divides the marital assets is in favor of the many “gold diggers” out there. I stopped listening after this last comment as a strange panic took over me. I found myself thinking about my own life and the “choices” I had made. I myself am a stay at home mom to two wonderful boys. Although I am very grateful to be able to stay at home and raise my kids – this discussion made me think about the invisible “gun to my head.” I chose to be at home, not because I am not qualified to work, and especially not because I am lazy. I have made this decision because having been a single mother in a previous life, my skin crawls at the thought of having to leave my children at another day care or with a nanny. So yes, there is no physical “gun to my head” and I have happily and graciously accepted this new role – but I would argue that there certainly is an invisible gun. Is it really my own choice and decision? Therefore all future burdens or consequences that result from it are mine to bare alone? Or is it a decision that my husband and I have made together for the betterment of our familial unit?


For any male readers that might stubble upon this article I offer this scenario. The woman in this story will be called “your sister” to really hit it home to you.


Your sister meets a wonderful, ambitious man, they fall in love and get married. Although she is a college graduate, has a decent job, and is fully capable and willing to work, they start a family right away and decide that it would be best for her to stay at home with the kids. Over the years, Her husband focuses more and more on his career (determined even more so now that he is the only breadwinner) and becomes quite successful. They have a wonderful home, and all the financial security one can hope for. They have three wonderful children and your sister devotes her life completely to providing a good home and upbringing for them. Both parents ripe the benefits of having three happy, confident, and well adjusted children. Although she sometimes thinks about her old career and about what “could have been” had she continued working, she is happy to have the opportunity to spend all her time with her children and husband.


Exactly 10 years into their marriage, they have an unfortunate falling out and decide to get a divorce. Your sister gets joint custody of the children and nothing else. Her husband argues that she chose to stay at home while he worked hard to earn everything he has and that “no one put a gun to her head.” Terrified for her children and her future, your sister heads out to find work only to discover that her degree and work experience are “dated” and no one wants to hire someone that has been out of the work force for 10 years. She gets a job at the local mall and struggles to make ends meet while her ex husband enjoys the same lifestyle he enjoyed before the divorce.


If you are reading the above scenario and thinking that ‘your sister” is just a fictional character then it’s time you pay closer attention to all the single mothers out there that find themselves in this exact situation. Not because they are lazy or not qualified – but cause they sacrificed their careers and educational advancements for the love of their family. Is this a situation that one would wish for their own sisters or mothers? It amazes me how much lack of respect we have for a mother’s love and devotion. How we punish a woman for putting her children and family over her own career, success, and security.


From early childhood, I was taught that the only person one could truly depend on was themselves. Having been raised to be independent, it’s even scarier to realize that what I consider “ours” is really just “his.” My reward for this is knowing that my children are at home with me and I am there to witness and enjoy their many wonderful moments throughout the day. This however comes at a great cost to my own future and security – especially knowing that the world still does not understand or see the invisible gun to my head.


The Universe Guru


*Above picture is my own: My babies.

Wednesday, June 22, 2011

The Vampires in My Life

You have them too, we all do.  The energy suckers of our lives.  The ones we meet through common friends, at work, or through our religious afflictions.  No matter how hard we try, they are impossible to get rid of and definitely not easy to live with.  You somehow always end up sitting at their table.  Or they find you and zero in to ask a million unbearably personable questions.  Answers to which they will prostitute out to everyone they know – their own twisted versions of course.

I have a couple of these vampires in my life.  My skin crawls at the thought of seeing them and talking to them.  I see them often at lunch and dinner parties and community functions.  So how do I deal with the vampires in my life?  Well, I don’t.  I really do wish I did “deal” with them and once and for all - put them in my place.  Accept my oath and life long journey to positive thinking, positive living, and positive being comes in the way.  Until the day that my vampires find peace and happiness in through own lives, they will continue to prey on mine.

So we let’s take a moment and pray for these lost souls.

xoxo

The Universe Guru

Tuesday, June 21, 2011

New Beginnings

Exactly one year since my last post - I'd like to dedicate the following video to all my devoted readers. Here's to new beginnings.



Stay tuned for the return of The Universe Guru.

xoxo

Thursday, July 1, 2010

She lives with me…

Eight months pregnant, I was getting ready to welcome a new life into the world for the second time.  I was much more mature now at 29 and could appreciate the joys of pregnancy and motherhood from a different place inside of me.  Feeling very blessed and content for the first time in my life.  And suddenly it all changed. 

We got the news that my mother was once again hospitalized.  Her cancer had spread – even worse than before.  It wasn’t looking too promising for her.  And suddenly she was gone.  Just like that – at 49, a week before her 50th birthday, we buried her.

On March 29, 2010 I lost my best friend.  A part of me was buried with her.  I was happier for her than I was sad for myself.  Her misery had finally ended.  She could now rest in peace.  She was a special person – as mothers often are.  But I was fortunate enough to have known her as a whole person, not just as my mother.

I gave birth almost 6 weeks later to my second son.  Feeling sad that he would never get to know her.  As I held his tiny body close to me, I imagined how my mother had held me when I was born.  As my new baby looked at me with love and need – I wondered if I had looked at her the same way.   Every emotion I felt – I knew she had felt before me.  And I was once again reminded of how dearly she loved us.

I feel a greater and stronger connection to my siblings since my mother has passed away.  They are dear to me not only because they are my siblings – but also because they are her children.  They are a part of her and I can see and feel her in them.  My brother has her facial features and my sister her strength.

My calls to my mom in times of excitement and despair, have slowly turned into moments of “what would she say or do in this situation.”  I often dial her number, only to remember she is no more.   It’s strange not to have her anymore.  Her favorite flowers greet visitors at the front door to my house.   I often feel her hands on my cheeks.  Her joyous laughter still sounds in my ears.  She is never far from my thoughts.  She is not physically here, but I feel her in my actions, my thoughts, and in myself.  She lives through me and she lives with me.

And I thank the Universe for the pleasure of knowing her – as a mother, a woman, and as a whole being.  Thank You.

The Universe Guru

Friday, December 25, 2009

Happy Holidays From The Universe Guru!

 

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Hope you and your family have a wonderful holiday season.  Stay warm, and safe!

Tuesday, November 10, 2009

Creating my Village…

Busy-Mom-and-Housewife You know the age old saying “it takes a village to raise a child…,” well I have become a newfound  believer.  And it has hit me harder since I made the move from Chicago, IL to Greenville, South Carolina.  I consider myself to be a fairly “private” person – yes even with my blog, facebook account, and twitter page – so allowing others into my child’s life has been a challenge to overcome.  But I’m glad I made the transition.

Here is my modern day child rearing village:

  1. My personal network of immediate family and friends.  This includes my mother, sister, aunts, uncles, in laws, etc.
  2. My Community of friends, teachers, and neighbors right here in my new hometown.
  3. My facebook account where I can post pictures of my child and ask other mothers important questions.
  4. My momslikeme.com account where hundreds of local women offer their motherly advice and expertise.
  5. My intent.com  account where I can find a community of spiritual and holistic leaders – offering advice on nurturing myself and my needs so I can be a better person.

In creating this global and local village – I have noticed a huge shift in my parenting style – as I have found great inspiration and encouragement from other parents.  Living in Chicago – I used to find myself getting offended if someone criticized me or offered me unsolicited advice on my parenting style or skills.  I now appreciate and welcome such advice – even when I don’t completely agree with other parents.  There is so much we can learn from each other – and a sense a community has become my greatest resource in raising my son.  I find myself becoming a more informed, and even more loving parent – and my son a happier child as a result.

What do you guys think?  Do you believe in having a village parenting style or do you prefer to stay independent?

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